1. |
east of eden
06:08
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it’s not just one long time coming here
i’ve been down this road before
it’s all right you may
strong, wrong, loving hear
you’re all i see in this storm
you feel my
lost soul weighing me down heavy
if you don’t mind
it’s you not i
love whole, holding me up steady
it’s you not i
but still i feel it in my bones
i’m living in an empty home
no one’s home
no one’s home
it’s not that i don’t know why i’m here
i’ve been born again i know
but so much that i
strong, wrong, loving fear
i can’t see it anymore
for few lie on this deathbed i’m warming
just you and i
and soon will i love whole
hold me close for me
just you and i
but still i feel it in my bones
i’m living in an empty home
no one’s home
no one’s home
but still i feel it in my bones
no one living in my home
nothing missing from my bones
i have no one to call home
no one’s home
no one’s home
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2. |
summer
07:04
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seasons pass me by
why did i try
reasons for goodbye
none of it’s mine
ransom
pay the price
just trying to be nice
and then some
say it’s right
we shouldn’t we might
but God
my sin
what did i begin
oh God
my skin
summer has ended
summer has ended
secrets don’t make friends
means to an end
regrets
holding hands
what was our plan
believe
love again
not that we can
perceive
tell me when
this nightmare will finally end
but God
my sin
what did i begin
oh God
my skin
summer has ended
but God
my skin
what did i begin
oh God
my sin
summer has ended
summer has ended
maybe
when the winter comes
say please
and i will be here
outside
in the cold
waiting
to hold
to be held
to behold
behold
behold
behold
behold
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3. |
idk
07:36
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i know you try
i know you fail
what is love beyond the veil
get it right
get in spite of pain
what is lost when we have gain
make something new
make something right
what can offer to the light
break some things few
break nothing mine
what can safely draw the line
don’t ask me i
i don’t know
i don’t know
i don’t know
the harlot and the robber scorned
clothed in garments soiled and torn
i must wash it all away
i am penance, what is grace
memorize and stay on key
walk in step and eyes on me
act in kind, perform in strife
how has this applied to life
thought i knew but actually i
i don’t know
i don’t know
i don’t know
(this is it, this is it)
(I am the road leading to no return
secret of life nobody wants to learn
I am the car racing towards distant shores
now his life is forever mine
and i am Yours)
the harlot and the robber scorned
clothed in garments soiled and torn
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4. |
phileo
07:34
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they call me gorgeous
but don’t know my name
they say i’m accepted
but leave when i came
they draw near my body
but distance my heart
they gently surround me
then tear me apart
they love me
they love me not
they love me
they love me not
they call me brother
but don’t treat me the same
they say i’m forgiven
but lay on the blame
they draw to the Body
but distance my soul
they gently surround me
then swallow me whole
they love me
they love me not
they love me
they love me not
(oh love)
i am your sheep
i am your whore
not asking for more
that’s love at the core
you are my shepherd
you are my dad
it must be that’s bad
that’s brokenness had
i love ‘em
i love ‘em not
i love ‘em
i love ‘em not
i love me
i love me not
i love me
i love me not
i love him
i love him not
i love him
i love him not
i love me
i love me not
i love me
i love me not
(i get everything i want
but get everything i want
i hate everything i got
but lose everything i got)
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5. |
hamartia
10:48
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i never wanted more from you
through our struggles and doubts
yet you spoke into my life so soon
and you helped me get out
i had given up on all the ways
i could be understood
i am broken having tried so long
i couldn’t fight when you could
i am sin
that’s why you end where i begin
i can’t give in
this new creation i must live in
i know we made a promise to fight
not to fall to desire
but even now i still get what i want
i get you burned in my fire
where’s the kindness
that you showed to me
now i see only despair
‘cause though we’re same
that’s the very reason
hating me is so fair
i am sin
that’s why you end where i begin
i can’t give in
this new creation i must live in
i’m gonna drive to the marina
i know i
understand
though we didn’t have a plan
you cared
until caring became bad
what we had
what we shared
it’s just sad
i just wish that being loved
didn’t have to be so wrong for others but
i understand
so i can’t, after all that’s happened,
be one in presence of a greater plan
i’ll be gone
i should leave
can’t hurt anyone anymore
gonna drive to the marina
(oh God)
i am sin
that’s why you end where i begin
i still give in
this new creation i can’t live in
i am sin
‘cause if you love me you won’t win
i am sin
‘cause if you hate me you will live
if i am sin
then i can’t be with Him again
if i am sin
when time is full then i will end
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6. |
sometimes
12:08
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sometimes
sometimes
sometimes i feel so alone
you
watch me unwrap my skin
all glisten
see me
see right through me
through thin air
here
air
i don’t want to know
know
no, no
they’re all shadows
beyond shadows
of shadows
of the real thing
can’t have the real thing
no, no
but i have shadows
i’m dry and it shows
shows
show
show
wherefore art thou
now that i am the only one
wherefore oh friend
oh lover
wherefore oh church
oh brother
where might i strive to
now that oh love and life no longer free
oh Death
where is Your sting
where is Your sting
where is Your sting
(sometimes
sometimes
sometimes i feel so alone)
(oh Death
where is Your sting)
i am nothing
I am Death
Death is nothing
nothing is death
like a breath
thus saith the Lord
oh holy matrimony
atrophy like the death that is inside of me
hides in me
there’s a fight in me
something’s not right with me
nothing is right with me
nothing with me
when it’s all just about me
frontal lobotomy bottle in front of me
i’m drinking
i’m thinking i’m sinking
thinking about the dreams that i’m leaving
weaving to explain why i’m heaving
heathens refrain from heavy breathing
it’s seething
i partake
but it’s fake what i make
are mistakes
bloody lakes that have formed
where i’ve struck the stakes
for all i do is take
i don’t make
i break
and what’s broken once spoken
the purifying waters of glory chosen
can’t soak in
it’s frozen
gates of heaven closing
you should have known this
should have known this
am i born this
should i mourn this
have i torn this
now that i’ve worn this
formless
for how can i demand anything
command everything
i had it all like planned and everything
but like castles in the sand
it was banned, everything
every little thing in my hands
like the bands that have played
every note that was made
like my scars never fade
they scar and they maim
they bar and they blame
and my name
my God the same
it’s nothing but lame
as i, lame, went and came
no, there is nothing i can, in essence,
nor should i, in presence, claim
but i’m not mad
it’s sad
i’m bad
what i had never once did i really have
but i’m glad i had
i’m fed
i’m dead
i am dead
I am Death
I am Death
I am Death
becoming
I am Death
death
death
death
death
breath
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7. |
creatio continua
12:58
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scars before they heal
wound and open more
not in this life
not enough
gifts before they give
corrupt and take away
not in this life
not enough
everything i want
is nothing i have not already
experienced to be
insufficient
everything i need
is everything i have yet to
experience to be
more than sufficient
love before it died
died so that I could
though not in this life
it’s enough
life before it ends
lives to rise again
You are my life
it’s enough
everything i want
is nothing i have not already
experienced to be
insufficient
everything i need
is everything i have yet to
experience to be
more than sufficient
more than sufficient
all i wanted was a friend
but some of them do come again
before they leave
it’s enough
no one by my dying bed
but You will give me life again
before the throne
it’s enough
all i want is death to end
but You call me to die again
and die again
it’s enough
someone please forgive forget
but You remember every debt
and yet redeem
it’s enough
it’s enough
everything i want
is nothing i have not already
experienced to be
insufficient
everything i need
is everything i have yet to
experience to be
more than sufficient
everything i am
is nothing i have not already
conditioned to be
insufficient
everything I am
is everything I have yet to
experience to be
what You envision
what You envision
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8. |
the gray i am
07:23
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i’m awash with the black
I’m awash with the white
i can’t take it back
i don’t know what’s right
love duality masks
pain brutality strikes
i don’t wanna ask
i know what he likes
spectrum speak over me
multi-colored coat namesake
vision-reading slave
dreaming slave-master
Sovereign Lord over me
multi-colored wing rapture
give this cup to me
i’m no Savior King
i ambiguity
been so lost inconsistency
water over me
underwater sea
breakers into me
boundary broken in me
breathe my vague for your certainty
Lord, trade my gray for the Great I Am
i’m the trauma that’s here
i’m the victim at last
i don’t run very far
i the ghost from your past
but You’re salvation in me
Lamb of God brought to none
You run up to me
You the prodigal One
psychopathology
I am faith and biology
life that’s grown inside
please don’t simplify
crimes of wrath on my head
sin begets sin i’m broken
but not blameless i
have to make things right
I am new I am death
I already but not yet
You have justified
and You will sanctify
dark developed to me
oh Light, please complete all of me
oh Spirit, trade my gray for the Great I Am
I am already but not yet
I am already but not yet
I am already but not yet
(trade my gray for the Great I Am)
We are already but not yet
We are already but not yet
We are already but not yet
(trade our gray for the Great I Am)
oh Mystery
oh History
oh Sublime
oh Space and Time
oh Infinite Worth
oh Virgin Birth
oh be my Rest
oh be my Best
oh God
oh Father
my God
my father
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